This EP represents the arduous experience which ensues during panic episodes, when mentally the conditions of life unravel within and I’m left recognizing calm energy flowing gently below the insane rubble of my human life. Reflecting after these intense, often suicidal moments, it becomes clear that culture, language, love, work, acquisition, sex, survival are all expressions of this energy, but are secondary to it. They are the form in which humans express energy, not energy itself. This realization has helped me, and it is important to communicate.
We suffer experiences of anomie, detachment, and absurdity within the conditions of our lives, attributing value to illusion (conditions) which creates further detachment. Indian philosophy calls the conditions maya, as in humans operate under a veil of maya (illusion), attributing value & importance to necessary, but ultimately lifeless forms. There is energy speaking through form, the form is not energy, the form is conduit. The energy is not religious or spiritual. It simply is!
There are very few discernible words on this EP, and a lot of guttural screaming for the sake of it. Subconscious discontent, below, beyond and out of reach of language.
It feels great to express this concept so wholly with the artwork, artist statement and overall feeling of the music. I call panic attacks ‘unraveling’ and they have been a disturbing, often life threatening experience. To talk about it with the band and visual artist, conceptualize, research and present this painful and personal experience has been healing. Everyone in the band (and our artist) had to consider this concept together and find meaning and triumph in the process of expressing. This is what art is about: a powerful conduit for exposing demons, rectifying, and moving on.
Released July 9, 2015
Music by Thera Roya
Recorded by Dan Rivas @ The Meatlocker (Nov 2014)
Mixed & Mastered by Pete August, Dan Rivas and R.Smith
Artwork by Miriam Carothers